http://crazydreamer.blogdrive.com/ such a crazy dreamer... Sat, 27 Aug 2005 12:20:00 PDT http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2005. http://crazydreamer.blogdrive.com/archive/8.html Sat, 27 Aug 2005 20:15:40 GMT what i've learned recently is that, as the cliche goes, love does come when you least expect it. i have just about given up on it, had just cried all of the tears i could cry; i have sort of accepted that maybe, love just isnt for me right now. i had spent so many sleepless nights just thinking about why those i like never end up liking me back; i had just enough of writing one sawi story after the other in my jounral and analyzing the reasons why they never seem to find it in themselves to like me back. I had prayed many novenas to different saints, just wishing i'd someday find love. but... (more) http://crazydreamer.blogdrive.com/comments?id=8 http://crazydreamer.blogdrive.com/archive/7.html Sun, 08 Aug 2004 15:36:12 GMT approximately three million neurons have died just this week due to alcohol intoxication aka as being drunk. it's basically detox week, having finished the first round of non-stop exams for the whole month of july. so it was three nights of fun and drinking that caused the death of my neurons. Brain matter that i would probably need since i am going to be a doctor, and help save people's lives. i would need all the neurons that i have, possibly more. but no regrets (yet...) because it has been fun just hanging out and getting drunk and having fun...although i didnt get to do the things... (more) http://crazydreamer.blogdrive.com/comments?id=7 http://crazydreamer.blogdrive.com/archive/6.html Sat, 17 Jul 2004 18:01:55 GMT OVERVIEW Situations may seem black and white, but there are always layers of gray. Searching out the gray areas could make all the difference to your attitude. You may be torn between the need to socialize and a need to spend more time alone. You can face problems with more courage than you expected. Lucky number is 8. WISHES Painful memories of a past lover will finally begin to fade. Feeling carefree and refusing to accept any restrictions on your time, money or emotions makes you a fun guest at parties. The areas in your life that brings you happiness also promotes spiritual growth.... (more) http://crazydreamer.blogdrive.com/comments?id=6 http://crazydreamer.blogdrive.com/archive/5.html Sat, 10 Jul 2004 15:01:53 GMT how i absolutely HATE him. i know he thinks of it as ood ol fashioned joking...but why does he have to make me inis or humiliate me in front of friends all the time, every chance he gets? even the littlest things i do, like getting something to eat, for crying out loud, he just HAS to react in some sarcastic and kakainis way??? it used to make me happy, having his attention all the time. since he makes jokes about me, then that must mean he notices me right? but shit, this time maybe its gone just a bit too far. its one thing to make jokes and shit, but when its done all the time...it gets... (more) http://crazydreamer.blogdrive.com/comments?id=5 http://crazydreamer.blogdrive.com/archive/4.html Fri, 02 Jul 2004 15:51:12 GMT i have just recently read a friend's blog and he wrote about his frustrations about being in medical school still. and i totally was able to relate. how many times have i asked myself what the hell im doing here, studying damn worms and freaky bacteria, when i could be someplace else, doing someting i love to do; and not doing something i know i really dont want to do, something i was forced into doing by my parents. i know that they forced me to go into medicine because of the rewards being a doctor would give me. but i know in the long run, that when i do become a successsful doctor in the... (more) http://crazydreamer.blogdrive.com/comments?id=4 http://crazydreamer.blogdrive.com/archive/3.html Thu, 24 Jun 2004 15:13:33 GMT Young love. Some may say it’s the greatest feeling in the world. and maybe it is. Its really wonderful how one person can make you feel this certain way; how his mere presence makes you feel grateful to be alive. how one gesture directed towards you can literally make your day the happiest. Love is a wonderful thing that truly cannot be fathomed. Yet with all the "greatness" that come with it, there is also the sadness and the pain...especially once you realize that the "love" you felt cannot be given back to you. Indeed, it is amazing how love works, how it can turn people, rational... (more) http://crazydreamer.blogdrive.com/comments?id=3 http://crazydreamer.blogdrive.com/archive/2.html Wed, 23 Jun 2004 15:52:15 GMT yup. i dont want a boyfriend. and that's the truth. but why is it that when you want a guy, people will automatically assume it's a boyfriend, a relationship, a commitment that you want as well? a million songs have been written about finding love, about being cared for - about loving and being loved in return. is it bad to want to feel all these things? without necessarily having a "boyfriend." i admit. im a commitment phobe. and yet, i still want someone who will care for me, think of me, be concerned for me; to dream of me at night, to want to dream of me at night and actually want to... (more) http://crazydreamer.blogdrive.com/comments?id=2 http://crazydreamer.blogdrive.com/archive/1.html Mon, 21 Jun 2004 16:28:01 GMT this is the absolute first time i have ever written in a "journal" for everyone to read. ive kept a diary as a kid and it contained all the things i would never have the guts to tell my friends. besides, ive always been a private person. i choose carefully the things i tell other people, lest they might use it against me in the future. that was then. now, ive become more open about my life. not to strangers. but to friends i know would never betray me. and this public blog is just a step into being more open about my experiences...for me to able to share my thoughts, my feelings, my life to... (more) http://crazydreamer.blogdrive.com/comments?id=1